Hello. I’m Here. Barely. August 23, 2010
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Hello Pam. Thanks for noticing my absence. 
Honestly, I’ve got nothin’.
I’ve just come away from a very, very bad week. The kind that changes your life FOREVER. (So you know, heavy stuff.)
To top it off, I was extremely busy with photo shoots last week (check my photo blog cause I’ve been posting there) which was great, but a bit stressful given our lovely week.
Sometimes life SUCKS. BAD.
A few days ago, I photographed the kids of the dentist who fixed Hannah’s teeth. During casual conversation with him and his wife, I started crying.
HELLO. PEOPLE. CRYING ON THE JOB.
Totally not cool. Did I mention I don’t know these people? Yep. Just met the wife 30 seconds before the shoot and I’ve only seen the dentist while he was working on Hannah’s mouth.
What can I say, I’ve been out of sorts.
I have no juice. I have nothing to write.
I have audibly reminded myself like a trillion times, “It’s not the challenges you receive in life, it’s how you handle them.” David asked me why I kept saying that (out loud, to myself mind you) and I told him, “BECAUSE I NEED TO HEAR IT.”
In an effort to help, many people try to think of someone else they know who’s situation was worse than yours, and how things turned around and there was this beautiful ending . . .
Well, let me tell you folks . . . IT DOESN’T HELP.
I’m not interested in comparing crappy situations. Those heart warming stories (while nice and all) do not make me feel better one iota. I know people are just trying to help, but seriously . . . JUST. STOP. IT.
I just want to be heard by people I know and trust, and then in some weird twisted way, I feel SO MUCH BETTER when people say. “Seriously, that DOES suck.” What can I say? I’m a woman who wants to be heard; the “problem solving” conversations are not helping.
Interestingly enough, earlier in the week I came across this video which I bawled throughout:
And you know what? I have the most important things in place in my life. I have a wonderful husband, two darling, healthy kidlets, a supportive family, and I know God has not forgotten about us.
I have no idea what his plans are though.
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I was having a really crapp day last week. For no apparent reason. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does, you just want to throw a little pity party, and then move on.
EMILY!
I watched and bawled through that whole video too. I have no idea what you are going through, and I know it doesn’t help, but please know that I am thinking about you. In fact, I am on my way up to my room and will say a prayer for you. I promise.
Trials and challenges are hard in life. In fact, tonight I am introducing my family’s motto for the year: “I can do hard things.”
I’m so sorry you are suffering right now.
Off to that prayer…
Em-
I commented to Jonathan after we left Sat, that you had good spirits about you given everything ….you were a good faker then eh? LOL. I will say this…I have always admired your willingness to take what life gives you and make the best of it…the moves, the life being up in the air, living situations etc.
You are quite amazing.
Hang in there…and thanks again for sat.
I’m sorry it sucks. Everything works itself out in time, but it doesn’t make the mean time any easier.
Emily,
Not sure whats going on, but I am praying for you. Sorry for this dark valley. I agree all the promises and it will get better do not help, but Prayer does and God has a plan…..
I’m glad you are alive! If you need to vent, I’m here for ya (well, from a distance;)). You could count on me to be your biggest cheerleader and tell you it all SUCKS!! Sorry for what ever you’re going though. You are a TROOPER!! You’ve proved that time and time again
Seriously Em, that DOES suck!
Rebecca.
xox
I’m so sorry that you had such a terrible week last week. You’re right, though. Sometimes no matter how hard you try to just put on a happy face, life hits you like a ton of bricks and leaves you in a sad, hurt, angry heap.
Lots of love,
Kelley
sorry that sucks, girl. Chin up. lots of love in the meantime and feel free to vent anytime on me.