Blah, Blah, Blah. November 23, 2009
Posted by Emily in : Family, Holidays, My Handsome Husband, Photography, Princess Hannah, Thoughts, Utah , trackbackI’ve been feeling rather blah lately.
It could be because I’m up to my eyeballs in my Photoshop class and it’s sucking every last drop of creative juice out of my body.
It could be my temporary role as “single parent” that is just doing me in as well.
It could also be that part of my heart is on the other side of the continent. What am I supposed to write about when my life feels so incomplete? So alone? So not the same?
I’ve been missing my husband who has been in North Carolina for the last few weeks.
UGH. I really hate being apart. Now don’t worry, I’m not going to get all sappy on you . . . I do not enjoy reading posts when women proclaim their undying love for their spouse. It’s like, TELL THEM NOT ME! Most of the time it’s just TOO MUCH INFORMATION and I feel like a peeping Tom eavesdropping on a private love conversation. There is a 100% chance I don’t feel the same way about your spouse (which is a good thing!) and it just grosses me out.
Phew. It felt good to get that off my chest.
Just know that I miss my man.
A lot.
He is the reason I started this blog.
Ahem. It’s more like, he set this blog up for me and said, “WRITE WOMAN!” (Maybe it was his secret attempt to get me to talk other people’s ears off instead of his so he could spend more time studying . . . OK, that’s probably not his motivation but you know . . .)
He also encouraged me (read: enrolled me at AAU) to pursue my passion for photography.
He solves my technical problems, re-installs my computer programs, and he calmly suggests logical answers to my “I think I’m going to die!” problems. Why is it that last week I was rear-ended, our clutch went out, a loose muffler hit my windshield at 70 mph, and my desktop computer contracted some virus that overtook my entire hard drive all within a few days?
UGH. It was so inconvenient to take care of these things. This is totally a “David” thing to take care issues like this. I’m the CEO of the inside of the house (decorating, grocery shopping, buying clothes, and deciding where every piece of furniture is set and where every frame is hung) and he is the CEO of the outside and electronics which obviously includes car and computer issues.
So, what I’m saying is . . .
I can’t think straight and I’m sad that he doesn’t get to see our cute little kids.
The only benefit of David being gone is that I get 100% of the kid snuggles.
Yep. That’s about the only benefit.
On the flip side, I am on on full time Dallin diaper duty (which is a challenge at every change because the busy boy literally needs to be pinned down!) and I get to listen to Hannah ask, “WHY?” 846 times a day and I get to think of obscure answers. (Trust me, the kid doesn’t take “I don’t know” for an answer.)
I am on the countdown for his return at the end of this week. The Webcam will just have to do for a few more days.
When he returns, my groove will be back and I’ll be posting lots of adventures from Utah.
I have lots of fun Christmas activities planned to do as a family and, of course, lots of pictures to take.
Waiting to get my groove back . . .
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Hang in there!
I’m glad he’ll be back with you soon. It’s so hard to be apart. I can’t believe all the happened to you in matter of days.
Samara and Hannah sound so much alike. I think they will make good playmates. They can ask each other why and see what the other comes up with.
What you mean you dont like to hear the undying love via blogs from and to spouses? (Ill give jonathan the memo) LOL.
I think your post was wonderful. Really- us superhuman mothers do need to say- hey- I do miss you when your gone, I do need you at times, and I appreciate all that you do.( I know I hate dealing with all the “guy” stuff)
I hope the next few weeks fly by till David gets home. It must be really hard to be far away.
I hope he’s back now, but I have to say, I don’t know how you do it. I have two kids but one of them is very easy and it still feels like I can’t wait for 5:30 to roll around so Kenny can show up to save my sanity. Going it alone for weeks on end? I really admire you.